Losing a pet is probably the worst loss I have ever experienced. Before my own dogs passing, I had no idea how it felt. Any other animals I have had in my life have never passed away whilst still being in my family. The last dog I had was given to my auntie because she became too violent with us, so I didn’t know how it felt losing her. But my dog, Honey we had for 14 years. 14 wonderful years of her wagging tail and beaming brown eyes. 14 years of her love and companionship.
Over the last year we saw a gradual change in her behaviour. As any person getting older, the fun became less and less. Her mobility reduced and the weight dropped off her. We probably held onto her for far too long than we should have but can you blame us?! Losing my 4 legged best friend has been something I never thought I would have to go through. I didn’t think about her dying or me having to get used to life without her. I guess I was naive.
The hardest part for me wasn’t the procedure itself. I knew we had to take things into our own hands so she didn’t suffer. The hardest part is knowing that my best friend is now sitting on my shelf in my bedroom. Its like my brain cannot process the fact that she is now in an urn in my house. I’m sure alot of other people who have lost any pet or family member knows what I mean. It will take a while to get used to.
GRIEVING THE LOSS
My dog was my world. Anybody who knows me personally knows how much she really meant to me. Everybody knows I loved her the most. I cant say she loved me the most though because my dad was her number one. I have gone through grief before when I lost my best friend. But this feels different. I spent every single day with my dog. Every single day for 14 years. I went through high school with her, I cried with her, laughed with her. I spent many nights cuddling her to sleep and her doing the same for me. And for that to all be gone in a matter of minutes broke my heart.
All of these losses in life are all life lessons though. All good things must come to an end. And if you’d ask me if I’d go through this again with another dog. HELL YES I WOULD. These months of sadness and heartbreak are worth the 15 years you get with an animal. It’s all worth it to experience the pure love they give. There are no expectations back, they love unconditionally.
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THEY ARE YOUR FAMILY
I sometimes get these moments of feeling like I’m being silly for being so upset about the loss of my dog. But when I think about it, she was as much as a part of my family as me or anybody else. The fact she was an animal doesn’t matter. And if you’ve lost a pet too, you will know what I mean. They look different to us but it doesn’t make them any less of a family member.
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WORKING THROUGH THE EMOTIONS
After losing a pet comes so many different emotions. Depending on how the loss happened, you might go through feelings of guilt, anger and sadness. And they will come and go. I find myself feeling strong and okay about it, then being completely inconsolable. Whenever I go through any periods of grief I always allow myself to feel. Whatever the emotions are, I ride the wave. It’s something my own mom taught me. Pushing away the emotions won’t help you deal with losing a pet or grief in general. It will prolong it and make it worse.
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